Thursday, January 9, 2014

H is for Her

I can't get her out of my head. The sheer joy radiating out of her smile that couldn't physically be any bigger is heart breaking. Her happiness illuminates everything around her. She looks as if every wish she ever had just came true all at once and every wish was a thousand times better than she expected.

Oh, how I hope her happiness lasted. I hope she is still at least a little happy. Thinking of the small possibility of her being happy six weeks after the wedding makes me want to cry. I don't care that Ex has moved on. He was looking for a new woman two days after I moved out of his house. I know he has been trying to find someone else before I even left. I'm not worried about him. I'm worried about her. The new Mrs. Ex.

Her facebook has pictures of him all over it. Google her name and wedding invitations pop up, wedding registries, deeds to land in Florida with his name added in October pop up. He is all over her life. His facebook registers one little sentence: "Married to Mrs. Ex". At least he finally removed the picture of me. That's something, at least, although the bastard has been married for six weeks and only modified the photo album one week ago.

She announced her engagement Sept. 25, 2013. Almost all of her friends who congratulated her also wanted to know who the guy was. Um, none of your friends know Ex and you are already engaged? And got married two months later? The facebook event page shows that she invited over 300 people and, according to facebook, 29 people went. Their Target gift registry is long and only four gifts were purchased from it. One friend asked how they met and she said he wouldn't believe it, but they met on craigslist. I believe it.

If there is one thing I want for her, it is for her to be happy. I want him to love her like he never loved me. At the very least, be a decent human being and not a sociopath. Is that even possible? I don't want her to go through what I went through. I don't wish her any harm or anything but happiness but I don't see that as a possibility with him. Evil can only be contained for so long.

If I could say one thing to her, it would be one word: Run.


  1. As my little sister pointed out, Mrs. Ex has not posted any new pictures since the wedding day. We all know what that means: real Mr. Ex probably came out to stay. I really hope I'm wrong.

  2. Wow! That is an interesting relationship based on what she posted. I hope that she can come to see what he is/was like before it is too late.

    You are a strong person to not wish ill will on her and to just want her to be loved.

    1. Thanks, yo. It just kills me to remember the happiness of being engaged to Mr. Wonderful and then the horror of realizing he's really a sociopath. I hope, I hope, I hope she is okay.


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